My thoughts on paper

So I've put on weight. So WHAT?
EEEk. Not fun.

AnyWHO...
Mardi Gras is tommorrow night and my gf cant go coz she has a tonne of work to do.....boo hoo. So I am not going as the friends that I have that are going ...well....yeah m just not going to bother. Wish it was televised though! It SHOULD BE.I don't know why it's not. Talk about equal rights, my ass.

anyways thats enough, I wish the most fun to all the wonderful people attending the mardi gras and can't wait to see pictures :)

xo

havent posted on this in so long.

forgot about lj with facebook and all, but LJ is like an old home, feels comfy here, and none of my friends read anymore so i can write anything i want.

my gf and i are going great atm, but shes getting busy and i am starting to think about her ex. yes hers, not mine, its a little weird i dont know whats going on, i still think about my gf but there is this other person in my thoughts now that i wonder what it would be like to kiss etc. I dont like it and i feel like im betraying her. Must stop, love gf, nothing will ever happen but i feel like im cheating on her even thinking about it.

arg.

 Well its been a long long time since ive been on livejournal. But Im back and so much has happened.
Broke up with V, she was still a little bit in love with her ex, which totally broke my heart but we are actually still friends - yes it DOES happen! haha.
new amazing girlfriend, been with her for 9 months now - BABY MONTH hahah but not really (eek!) so wow it really has been a long time since ive posted. For this journal I shall call her B so I can post stuff without making her self conscious. BUT i am SO IN LOVE with her. We've had our ups and downs but I cannot stay away... oh and the sex is like nothing i ever imagined! WOWEEE. Kinky bitch hehehe.
I wish to tell my other half of my family, but still way too scared - christians are scary and I still wanna be a part of their lives and im not sure that would happen if  i told them.. sigh.
So hi again livejournal, sorry i left so long.

wow! it has been so long since my last post!!
but, being without a computer i have survived, eductaed my self with some fabulous and some not so fabulous books, gone to new and interesting places, met some wonderful and not so wonderful people, seen many a good movie and a few bad ones...
who new?

hehe. so update.
anyone who's reading this and wants to read a good book : The Time Traveller's Wife
is for you... BRILLIANT AND BEAUTIFUL> oh how i love it.

my girl - v, having a bit of a rough patch at the moment, dont really know where we stand but i still adore her..
met another girl - kristy, this is probably why the rough patch... had feelings for her and something almost happened between us but i stopped it before it happened .. as i said before, i adore v but with kristy, we just click, almost too well and the sexual tension is absolutely CRAZY. but i ADORE v. She is beautiful, fun, sexy... aRGH so complicated.

anyways in other news, job is getting better, actually have something to do most of the time so... YIPPEE

am also loving radiohead at the moment. can zone out whilst having a bath, clears my head. wonderful.

so, livejournal, what have you been up to?
hehe.

peace out lovelies

-nat XOXOXOXO

so i went to the fair yesterday with the girl (squees), so much fun! fairy floss (aka cotton candy for those in the US), snow cones galore!
beautiful hot day - 27 C, birds were singing and i almost threw up from the spinny ride (the toboggan one that just goes round & round & round ... the fairy floss didnt like it)



fairy floss.. yummy

Her show's over now so i might be able to spend some more time with her as well eek she makea me so happy mamma mia!

i hate working.
its such a viscious cycle, work to get money, spend money so u don't kill yourself coz ur always at work, go to work to get more money to live etc

ARGH>

DIE WORK DIE
& to the nasty customers >>> waiters r people too! biatches.
-nat

PS> v is a such beautiful, talented, gorgeous gurl! xoxo

so i called her,
GLEE!
she was interested.
we're going out to lunch tommorrow :D :D
hopefully all goes well !

in other news: saw 'brick'. was absolutely FABULOUS.
loved.it.

as i posted in bi_girls :)


i met an absolutely GORGEOUS girl today!


EEK i am so energised.
Was at work and she came in by herself, black hair, flowing blue dress with a paper in hand...
anyways it wasn't very busy so i got to chatting to her a bit while i took her order etc. and she was so lovely & chatty but im not sure if she was flirting with me or not?
anyway when she paid she gave me her number & said that i should call her.
So now im so excited but also a little confused... do u think she just gave me her number to be friends coz we got on pretty well & maybe shes straight? or do u think she gave me her number.. wink wink nudge nudge ??!?!?!?
argh. i need some insight. coz i dont want to get to excited if i call her & its the former.

-nat xo

So this is my first lj entry. i'm so excited!
id like to thank the academy ...
ahem.
well ill catch you up on the last 18 years of my life - a total blur really. Happy childhood, parents divorced leading to an unhappy high school life, a couple of nice bf's, one horrible bf and one absolutely beautiful gf - all over now tho :(
and here i am, single but pretty content i guess - just got a crappy job YAY so ill hv a bit of cash...
and today i intend to laze around the house sipping wine and have a bath ahhh

-nat